Confessions of a NaNoWriMo Dropout (I’m So Ashamed!)

confession bannerWell, I’m not really ashamed.  I just thought it made the title cute and catchy.  Anyway, you read that cute and catchy title correctly.  I am a NaNoWriMo dropout.  I didn’t write a single word after November 4.  Yep, I made it 4 days and 4302 words.  Now before you shake your head and look at me disapprovingly, allow me to explain myself.  I really do have a good reason for not going the distance.

I dropped out of NaNoWriMo because I tried to do too much (like seriously overcommitted).  I signed up for both NaNoWriMo and BookBlogWriMo, and (of course) it was too much writing to do in one month.  Why did I choose BookBlogWriMo over NaNoWriMo?  Easy.  I enjoyed it more.  Like, a whole lot more.

Yes, I have a story to tell.  And I will eventually get the whole thing down.  I’ll also likely publish it in some way.  But the first draft isn’t going to happen in 30 days.  Maybe 30 months.  I guess the pressure of the 50000 words in 30 days didn’t motivate me.  Quite the contrary.  It just seemed like work and that’s not what I wanted.

BookBlogWriMo, however, was a blast.  I really enjoyed writing most of the posts (and I didn’t hate those I didn’t enjoy), and I got a lot of good comments and warm fuzzy love.  The reflections on the past and future of LeilaReads were really helpful.  I kinda reaffirmed my reasons for starting and maintaining this blog, and I’m more committed than ever.

So for the moment I’m more a blogger than a novelist.  And that’s OK.  It’s actually great.  You see, the less pressure I put on myself about that story I need to tell, the more likely it is to actually be told.  I think I’ll just chill on it for a while.  Maybe a few words here and there.  And in the meantime I’ll keep blogging.  Because it rocks.  And because you actually seem to enjoy reading what I right.  Ain’t that just the coolest thing ever?

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  1. Ashley

    I tried NaNoWriMo once in college. (Okay, that was unintentionally funny-sounding.) I don’t remember how far I got, but not terribly far. However, I’ve come to the opposite conclusion – I will never write a novel, and that’s okay. I am not a very good writer, and I really have no original ideas. So I will leave the writing to others, and just enjoy the reading. Well, unless I start writing fanfic again…

    1. Leila

      That’s true. It is OK to never write a novel. I disagree, however, about you not being a good writer. Maybe not a good fiction writer. Ooh, I’d be interested to read your fanfic!

      1. Ashley

        Point taken. I am not a good fiction writer. I also am paralyzingly afraid of people being critical of my writing, or of misunderstanding me, which is why the blog in my head has never been written. I will have to see if my fanfic z LiveJournal still exists…

        1. Leila

          No matter how wonderful a writer is someone will always be critical or misunderstand. Just an occupational hazard. The beauty of a blog is that people don’t seem to be too terribly mean as long as you’re not writing about something super controversial like Ferguson or something. I say write that blog. I’d subscribe 😉

          1. Ashley

            That’s the problem – I *do* want to write about controversial things. And I.am.a.chicken.

          2. Leila

            Well, disable comments for the first few weeks until you’ve built up some courage. And I’m so not going to let this go now that I know you kinda want to do it. 😉

  2. Melika

    No pressure. When the time comes, I am sure you can’t help writing the story. Keep writing please 🙂

    1. Leila

      Oh, of course. I’ll always be a writer. 🙂

  3. NaNoWriMo sonds so hard! I could never do it…. Way too much reading in such a short amount of time! Haha I probably would have dropped out too, lol 😉

    1. Leila

      It’s definitely hard. Especially with another challenge going on at the same time.

  4. Karen Blue

    I totally skipped #Nanowrimo. If I hadn’t of been doing #Bookblogwrimo, I might have tried it. I just don’t have the time to do both with 4 kids and a full time job. No friggin way. Admitting a “failure” is not a fault, it is a growing point. Maybe next year, for both of us.

    1. Leila

      With 4 kids and full time job I’m impressed you did bookblogwrimo, much less nano.

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