Well, I’m not really ashamed. I just thought it made the title cute and catchy. Anyway, you read that cute and catchy title correctly. I am a NaNoWriMo dropout. I didn’t write a single word after November 4. Yep, I made it 4 days and 4302 words. Now before you shake your head and look at me disapprovingly, allow me to explain myself. I really do have a good reason for not going the distance.
I dropped out of NaNoWriMo because I tried to do too much (like seriously overcommitted). I signed up for both NaNoWriMo and BookBlogWriMo, and (of course) it was too much writing to do in one month. Why did I choose BookBlogWriMo over NaNoWriMo? Easy. I enjoyed it more. Like, a whole lot more.
Yes, I have a story to tell. And I will eventually get the whole thing down. I’ll also likely publish it in some way. But the first draft isn’t going to happen in 30 days. Maybe 30 months. I guess the pressure of the 50000 words in 30 days didn’t motivate me. Quite the contrary. It just seemed like work and that’s not what I wanted.
BookBlogWriMo, however, was a blast. I really enjoyed writing most of the posts (and I didn’t hate those I didn’t enjoy), and I got a lot of good comments and warm fuzzy love. The reflections on the past and future of LeilaReads were really helpful. I kinda reaffirmed my reasons for starting and maintaining this blog, and I’m more committed than ever.
So for the moment I’m more a blogger than a novelist. And that’s OK. It’s actually great. You see, the less pressure I put on myself about that story I need to tell, the more likely it is to actually be told. I think I’ll just chill on it for a while. Maybe a few words here and there. And in the meantime I’ll keep blogging. Because it rocks. And because you actually seem to enjoy reading what I right. Ain’t that just the coolest thing ever?